last night when i was rubbing your back with my fingertips to put you to sleep i was very aware how my skin looks like coal compared to your snow. it was all i could look at. then all i could think of was how your grandmother used to rub your arms to help you fall asleep and it made me see you so innocent. you were falling asleep. i felt like i could rub you forever. i felt like if something happened i would remember rubbing you forever. the slightest touch... burned in me forever. you felt good like a child does. i was glad. then i fell asleep, too.
